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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 15:44

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

My family never makes their pension either.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

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Was to survive, this bastard.

Why did i forgive my father ?

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

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We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

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He knew the spot.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

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So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

But it wasn’t much.

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Would this be the day?

But, we were locked up after school.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

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I did it because my mum asked me too!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

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I couldn’t, believe it.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

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My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

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They are buried together, in the same grave..

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

All the time i was locked up.

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I was 9 years of age.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Why does my mother care about my sister more than me?

I think the readers, may guess!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

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And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

How do you complete “Ciao bell'uomo, come stai oggi, buongiorno signore, sono Jennifer Rose Louis, come ti chiami”?

When she asked me how she looked .

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

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This is soul school!.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

So, i spoilt her more .

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I waited trembling.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

He resisted the act ,that day.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Ive learnt so much.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I was very sick at this time too.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I write beautiful poetry .

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

My life is so biszare .

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Put me off passion for life!!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

We were not on the streets..

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Who then, do I blame.?

Comes on , in middle age.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I have no regrets .

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Im still living with it.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

She found it foreign!.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

She married twice! .

It was going to be , some day.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

She loved him until the end.

I will be 64.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

She wouldn,t have been !

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

She was in good health!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I never cut or harmed myself..

We all went to grammer schools

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

What did i know ?

I was scared of men, in general

I said to her

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

One cannot live in the past .

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I was seconnd youngest,

Especially a lifetime of it.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

But ive been too sick for many years..

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

And i lived it daily.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

(And it was in our own minds.)

I don,t even have a pension.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I could never make a relationship work though!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

So whats the point in blame.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)